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Finding her way back….

There was a time when she was so sure of herself. A time when she had it all figured out, had her life all planned out in fron of her. She was just taking it step by step to get there, to reach her goal. She was having the time of her life on her journey. She takes every risk as an adventure. She welcomes the challenges of life warmly and embraces the mistakes she makes along the way. With every lesson she learned, she was inspired to take a step further. Looking into the horizon, she saw her goal clearly, and with each day, strived harder to get close to it. She thought she was ready for the obstacles along the way, for the detours, the adversities. She thought she could take on everything.

But with each circumstance that came with every step, she got lost. At first it was fine, finding her way back to her path, eventually. But as time passed, little by little she’s finding it hard to go back. Every encounter sends her to a darker place, a confusing place, making her deviate farther from her original path. And little by little, she starts to forget why she is on this journey. She starts to forget her purpose, she starts to loose sight of her goal. She became so lost in the way that she also lost herself. When she looks ahead of her, she sees a blurr. The view that she used to happily enjoy became a big empty space. What used to be a grand portrait of her dreams became an empty canvass.

Days passed by, but she finds herself stuck in the same dark place. She can’t move forward, not knowing which place to go. What once was a brave girl, now became afraid of mistakes, of trials, of failure. She let fear in her heart, and it stayed there. She felt so broken and alone, with only fear to keep her company, along with misery, confusion, and frustration. She beats herself up for her failures, loosing her confidence and will.

She has no clue how to put herself back together, how to get back up and start moving again.

But with all the things that she lost along the way, she never lost hope. And with everything that has happened, she still finds herself hoping that one day, someday, a light will shine in the darkness, and she can find her way back to her path again.

I wish I was stronger.

1mto4-4mto1! Thank you guys for putting up with me for 4 years! Thank you for being with me thru my ups and downs, kahit nagkaiba tayo ng sections nun. I wouldn’t have survived college w/out your help! :) sorry sa mga pambubully ko sa inyo.. hehe I won’t say good bye coz I know magkikita at magkikita pa din tayo. Solid tayo diba? ILOVEYOUFOREVS! Cheers to us! Natupad natin ung promise natin sa isa’t isa na makagraduate ng March 2014! :) #solidfriends #supportsystem #wedidit #gradfeels

1mto4-4mto1! Thank you guys for putting up with me for 4 years! Thank you for being with me thru my ups and downs, kahit nagkaiba tayo ng sections nun. I wouldn’t have survived college w/out your help! :) sorry sa mga pambubully ko sa inyo.. hehe I won’t say good bye coz I know magkikita at magkikita pa din tayo. Solid tayo diba? ILOVEYOUFOREVS! Cheers to us! Natupad natin ung promise natin sa isa’t isa na makagraduate ng March 2014! :) #solidfriends #supportsystem #wedidit #gradfeels

Formal shot :) #gradfeels

Formal shot :) #gradfeels

The “highlight” of my internship! The legendary FIRE EXIT! I’m gonna miss you! Hahahahaha not! #pasawaynabata #10daysmakeup #muntiknarepeatinternship #lastsundayduty

The “highlight” of my internship! The legendary FIRE EXIT! I’m gonna miss you! Hahahahaha not! #pasawaynabata #10daysmakeup #muntiknarepeatinternship #lastsundayduty

Thank you soooooo much @arabellalalove!!! You’re so sweet! Thank you for the early grad gift! You really know me so well. Loveyou! :) #sweetsister #gradgift #insurgent #allegiant #bookworm

Thank you soooooo much @arabellalalove!!! You’re so sweet! Thank you for the early grad gift! You really know me so well. Loveyou! :) #sweetsister #gradgift #insurgent #allegiant #bookworm

Skyping with this cutieeee!!! I soooo wanna go hoooome to Marinduque already! #cousin #cutiepatootie

Skyping with this cutieeee!!! I soooo wanna go hoooome to Marinduque already! #cousin #cutiepatootie

A BIG CONGRATULATIONS to my sister! Great performance! We’re so proud of you! Ang galing galing mo ng bongga! A very memorable 18th! :) And syempre congratulations din sa Trinity Dance Troupe! Hands down! :) #proudsisteroverhere #tdtconcert #insuedesandvelvet #sinnersbehindsaints

A BIG CONGRATULATIONS to my sister! Great performance! We’re so proud of you! Ang galing galing mo ng bongga! A very memorable 18th! :) And syempre congratulations din sa Trinity Dance Troupe! Hands down! :) #proudsisteroverhere #tdtconcert #insuedesandvelvet #sinnersbehindsaints

Happy happy 18th to my awesome and VERY talented sister! Dalaga ka na! I’m sorry hindi ko natupad ung promise ko sayo.. babawi ako next year, totoo na talaga! Thank you for being not only a great sister, but a best friend as well! Basta whatever happens, ate’s always here for you! We are so PROUD of you! Good luck sa concert later! Galingan mo! Iloveyousis! @arabellalalove (drama ko ba??) Haha #debut #birthdayconcert

Happy happy 18th to my awesome and VERY talented sister! Dalaga ka na! I’m sorry hindi ko natupad ung promise ko sayo.. babawi ako next year, totoo na talaga! Thank you for being not only a great sister, but a best friend as well! Basta whatever happens, ate’s always here for you! We are so PROUD of you! Good luck sa concert later! Galingan mo! Iloveyousis! @arabellalalove (drama ko ba??) Haha #debut #birthdayconcert

Namiss kita bakla!! Finally nagkita din tayo! Hahaha thank you for today @anjperez101292 and #jec! :)

Namiss kita bakla!! Finally nagkita din tayo! Hahaha thank you for today @anjperez101292 and #jec! :)

1.31.14 ♥♥♥ #cmtps #pepmates #pepfamily

1.31.14 ♥♥♥ #cmtps #pepmates #pepfamily

New year’s day with Lucas people! Happy 2014! ♡

New year’s day with Lucas people! Happy 2014! ♡

New year’s day duty! Happy New Year everyone! Another year for opportunities, challenges and achievements! And I say “Bring it on 2014!” :D

New year’s day duty! Happy New Year everyone! Another year for opportunities, challenges and achievements! And I say “Bring it on 2014!” :D

Impulse buying! Haha plastic envelope lang dapat eh. But then I saw this.. Yey for new book! :D #Divergent #veronicaroth #bookworm

Impulse buying! Haha plastic envelope lang dapat eh. But then I saw this.. Yey for new book! :D #Divergent #veronicaroth #bookworm

Earlier at MOA :) #ootd #chillaxfriday #dayout

Earlier at MOA :) #ootd #chillaxfriday #dayout